THE grieving mother of murdered Cessnock man Michael Moad has told of the “indescribable” and “unbearable” pain she has felt since Gregory Thompson brutally stabbed her son to death.
In several emotional victims impact statements read in Newcastle Supreme Court on Thursday, Colleen Moad – via her grandaughter Amy – and her daughter, Louise Scott, confronted Thompson with the gravity of his actions.
Thompson was found guilty on Tuesday of murdering Mr Moad, the new boyfriend of Thompson’s ex-wife Karen, on March 1, 2015.
The brutal murder followed years of psychological abuse, a messy divorce and escalating tensions between Thompson and his ex-wife, where he threatened to “destroy anything that made her happy”.
A statement from mother Colleen Moad was read in front of Justice Peter Hamill on Thursday and included: “You’re never supposed to bury your children. The loss of Michael has caused me pain that is unbearable’’.
“Some days I’m numb, and some days I ache.
“I wake most nights at 2am. I lay there and I think.
“I try to think of Michael being in a better place but then I’m drawn back to the same thought I have every night and most days.
“That’s the thought of my little boy being murdered.
“The pure fear he would have felt as the life slowly drained from his body.
“Then it hits me. Pure and utter despair.’’
Mrs Moad told of Michael’s call every Friday where he would open with “Ha Mum” and how her heart now skips a beat if the phone rings on a Friday.
“I lost my husband of over 60 years last year,’’ the statement said.
“Michael’s death was just too much for him to bear.
“Sometimes I feel so alone now.
“When I wake up of a morning, I have to remind myself to keep breathing, to keep moving, to keep going.’’
Her daughter and Mr Moad’s sister, Louise Scott, said her brother’s death was too much for her father to bear.
“He never, ever got over having to bury his youngest child,’’ Mrs Scott said.
She said Michael had treated her children like his own.
“Michael was a real person, not just a victim or the deceased,’’ Mrs Scott said.
“He had a name, a face and a family who loved him.
“He was a son, a brother, an uncle, a great uncle, godfather, a friend and a partner.’’
Mrs Scott said her brother was 48 when he was killed and still had “so much life to live.’’
She said his death had impacted on her family “in a way that I’m afraid words may never convey”.
“The murder of my brother has consumed my life and my family’s life,’’ Mrs Scott said.
“It’s all we think about, all we talk about and I’m scared it’s never going to go away.
“Because of this, I find it difficult to socialise with my friends anymore because I don’t know what else to talk about or I’m consciously trying not to talk about Michael’s murder.
“I’ve lost friendships.
“The actions of Gregory Thompson have instilled so many fears in to me I’m scared I’ll never recover. My coping skills, attitudes and behaviours will never be the same.’’
Mrs Scott said she had to change her working conditions as a registered nurse because she could now not work in trauma or at night.
Thompson sat with his chin on his hands as the victims impact statements were read and a photograph of Michael Moad was displayed on court screens.
Justice Hamill would later tell the court: “I can’t see any evidence at all, including his demeanor during the reading of the victim impact statements, to show me he is remorseful at all.’’
Justice Hamill will sentence Thompson on Thursday afternoon.