During every game you play, there are moments you love and moments you'd love to have back.
I tend to I think about all of them pretty much as soon as I get back in the dressingroom straight after a game. You go over in your head what worked and what didn't, what you could or should have done better, what went right and what went wrong.
There was a lot of good stuff against the Dragons last Sunday night that went right. Our intensity was great. Our defensive structures really stood up for us again and there was plenty of fight in the boys. No-one could fault our intent, effort or desire.
But in the end, we fell just short and it's frustrating to put so much effort in and not come away with anything.
I can understand the frustration of our fans as well. We have now had two really close losses that could easily have gone our way and if they did, we'd be in a far stronger position. But it is what it is and now we have to work that little bit harder to re-balance the win/loss ledger.
Looking back on the Dragons game, there were several big moments we'd love to have over again.
I'd love to have locked up the ball and protected it better when Tyson Frizell made a play for it before he scored in the first half.
But the seven tackle set right before Corey Norman kicked the winning field goal in golden point was probably the big one on reflection because we had control at that point with not much time left on the clock.
We watched it back on review and we didn't handle the set great. There was a pass in the middle of it that went to ground and we lost momentum and didn't recover it unfortunately. Then there was the set earlier with about seven minutes to go in regular time when we kicked early and it didn't come off. But that's footy and the fatigue factor was an influence in all of that.
The game has definitely changed this season with the way the refs are interpreting things.
I thought on the weekend the penalties weren't being given in yardage and it felt for me like the Dragons were on top of us quicker than they probably should have been. We didn't adapt as well as they did to how the game was being reffed and we spoke about pushing the envelope ourselves a bit more if the refs are not going to blow as many penalties.
All games are different. The weekend was an arm wrestle and one of the more high intensity games. Did we handle it in yardage as well as we should have, probably not but again, the secret for us is to learn a lesson from it.
The Dragons' kick pressure was great. They do it better than anyone. They definitely jammed me quite a few times. When the wingers are back with the fullback and you are getting a lot of pressure, it's not easy finding the right kick so it really is about getting the yardage set right and getting on the front foot a bit more and that's something we are working on.
There is a technical side to it. The ideal kick is about pinning teams into a corner and suffocating them and we've had some joy with that. But last weekend, we weren't always in great positions to kick which made it tough but these as all things we talk about and work on. It's not something we leave to chance.
With Mason [Lino] coming in as another good kick option for us in that role, hopefully we can put ourselves in some better positions to share the kicking around a bit and make it more difficult for the defence to zero in on us.
So what do we need to do to get back on track against Manly on Saturday.
I don't think we are far away. We are probably guilty of playing a bit one out at the moment and being a new team, we are still trying to find the balance between having that trust to really move the ball but at the same time, still play field position.
But the structure stuff is not really working for most teams so we have to adapt. We have to look to play more footy. Be more instinctive.
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I think we have to back ourselves and chance our arm a bit more instead of always playing the percentages and getting good ball to players like Jesse [Ramien] is part of that. But there is a fine line between moving the footy and over-doing it and making too many errors.
For me, it's about connecting all the dots. Bringing all the good parts of our game together at the one time over the full 80 minutes. Do that and we'll be fine. We are not far off. I really do feel like it is coming.